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Someone once said to me, After a long and tiresome evening of drinking and drugs and chatting and whatnot, that; "People get crucified for saying things like that.."

Now, i figure it like this: If this world is to change, if the unbelieveable is to happen, Someone has to inspire. To do the impossible, Think the unthinkable.

If being crucified publicly is what it takes to open the worlds third Eye, Crucify me, My pain is already absolute.

So this is where i will rant, and ramble, and make non-sensical sweeping generalisations, as well as placing small nuggets of truth into everyones mind.

"A seed will grow into a seedling.. Thus forming the foundation of a great oak.."


Harumph.

So, the whole world world is a general misconception. Everyone is a liar, but will fight tooth and nail from fit to grave trying to prove they aren’t. Every parliamentary figure is a scared old fuddyduddy, Being badgered by the media and Religious Dynamo’s claiming new sciences are against “God” and you must think of your “Humanity” if you are to continue. 

bollocks on your humanity. And bollocks on your god. Creating problems and limitations that restrict your day to day life is the finest way to making yourself miserable and scared.

.. guh.. im too fatigued for this. I thought with a new life and new place and new time, we could all put away our childish things and have an air of Maturity for a change… Apparantly not.

Can’t wait to get back to work. The time i can escape and relax with some thinking will be valuable and well spent. 

Fuck them, Fuck the terminal, Fuck the kids, Fuck the mediocre, Fuck the unhappy, Fuck the facetious, Fuck the elderly, Fuck the tanned, Fuck the sensitive, Fuck the Censors, Fuck the government, Fuck facebook, Fuck twitter.

And most of all, Fuck You.

Disconnect, before the system disconnects you.

Mens proluvier Sententia Infinitio , Questio Navitas quod Refero ut Infinitum.

A Translation of thought.

mens proluvier Sententia Infinitio , Questio Navitas quod Refero ut Infinitum.

mens; Mind/Thought

proluvier; Scouring/Seeking

Sententia; Thought/Intelligent/Way of thinking

Infinitio; Infinity.

Questio; Seeking/Searching

Navitas; Energy

quod; Because/The point of/{Reasoning}

Refero;To bring/Echo/Restore/Return

ut; When/{Relative to time}

Infinitum; Infinite/Without Bounds/Limitless


And as i conceive it as a whole:

A Mind seeking Intelligent Infinity, Searching for Energy to Echo the Infinite.

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Ok.. So..

Thoughts and Perceptions.. Is there a difference? Right and Wrong.. Who’s to Judge? Fear and Paranoia.. Are they The same thing? Or different facets of another whole?

Thought and emotion may not be Vital, but it is neccessary. This being said, Why is it that when you are presented with a situation of nothing but positive gain through mild hard work, it seems the whole goal may elude you, Due to your own meddlings and paranoia..

This continues inwards, You understand there are restictions to what You can and should Say. But what real barrier exists? What is really there to stop you? Morals? {a creation of a larger whole, Which is different down to the individual and is compltely irrelevant to the next person} Is it fear of Prosecution? Is it a fear of understanding what you are truley capable of? Or is it really all coming down to a control? The systems in place are training, learning and reciting for a system that feeds itself. Stop feeding the system, the system falls apart….

extrapolate
v 1: draw from specific cases for more general cases [syn: generalize,
generalise, infer]
2: estimate the value of; in mathematics [syn: interpolate]
3: gain knowledge of (an area not known or experienced) by extrapolating


Now.. Oh great. the font broke.. Be right with you..

Ok, i can't fix it. Fuckit.


Anyways, The word Extrapolate has been tearing at my very conscious being. Mainly for Definition 3. [as you may have noticed i fixed the font now]

I want to extrapolate on so many situations, So much knowledge needs to be gained. But the words and questions elude me. It’s not that i lack the courage or Confidence, I simply lack the vocabular ability to request the information i desire.

There HAS to be an easier way. I cling and claw at the idea of a possible “Subspace” or “Infinite Intelligence” To share and colelct direct information through. Similar to an internet of thought. I could more readily convey my request for knowledge to those required…

But Again, this causes problems.. What if I really was right all along? Do i really want to know the truth? Is this a burden I would be willing to bear? I understand tolerance and acceptance, I think like no other, and i see through the eyes of the Damaged but focused. But does this blurr my vision? I try to think in more clarity than most, I dont let certain things invade my mind, But there are things which should bother me. Things that would make a normal person weep or become violently angry, But i simply pass it by.. Is it a gift? Or a curse? Seeds of knowledge i have planted have helped some and damaged others. How many great Oak’s appear? or are the seedling being harvested for the collective, and my careful gardening just brushed aside, like a Tractor being used in a zen garden.

I want my work to be worth it, I want certain projects to come to an Absolute fruition that i will work hard and be patient for.. But will it be worth it? Or will my simply voicing of concern tip a balance like it has many a time before? Or will everything i see and invision come to a truly, perfectly Horrible fruition?

Too much thought, Too much thinking.. Focus, Clear the mind, then the energy will follow. Once you have clear focus, visualise your objective, and know it. Believing in something implies doubt. But if you know your objective to be Ultimately true, Then why wont it be?

The final thought.. “I think therefore i am..” Has receded to “I doubt, therefore i might be” in this day and age.. But consider this; “I know, Therefore i will be.”

‘05./Disconnect. *,!,$

Note to self..

In the near future, rant about cyclic autonomy and history manipulation as opposed to the big bang…

Facecock?

“Your account is unavailable do to site maintenance, please try again in a few hours” love from Facebook.

Err… Wtf? This better have a reason behind it..

OK Insomnia, You win this round..

Consider this, Everything in the universe can be simplified down into a combination of 2 things; Fluid and Vibrations.

Any kind of massive simplification could not be any more accurate. Sound is simply a Vibration of Air. Air is simply a very very light fluid. It moves, it flows, Has weight, as well as many other similarities to fluids.

The human Biology is simply a massive amount of water, held in hypertension and re-inforced with A dense skeletal structure.

Concrete Doesnt ever completely Set. Its still a form of water, how ever as it settle the molocules align, making it more Dense. Glass is another good example. Is simply an extremely viscous fluid.

Now, Taking this into consideration, How is the universe ‘Powered’? From what can be perceived, Even simpler then Fluid is Energy, But this is what is needed to power the fluid. eg: the human body has an electric charge. Anything that is living does. And each creature powered by this charge has a different reaction system to generate this energy.

Moving on from this, The brain powers the human body by firing off nanoscopic amounts of energy to seperate nerve clusters in the body for certain reactions.

There has been alot of debate about the ‘%10 of the brain use’ and a lot of testing is really inconclusive. But what is gathered is that, if the human brain were to be operating at full capacity, there would be an obvious output of energy, and also an advanced need for energy reaction. (food) {the human body is just a big perpetual chemical reactor}

Now with this output of energy, What can be attained from it? Does it increase muscle or motor response improvement? Does it change chemical bases in the brain for larger hormone production? Leading to possibly bursts of strength from huge Adrenaline surges? Maybe.. Maybe.. Another thing worth considering is the Human Body’s EM Field. As with anything electrical, The human body has a Bio-electric Magnetic Field. Nothing huge, but its still there.

Combining this with increased brain use, Maybe this output can be used to manipulate the surrounding environment? Considering this, That the mind is simply powered by the same thing everything else is. Its all in the same Base. Its all powered by energy. Anything in your mind, are basic electrical impulses. Memories and such, is basically organic Data.

Also, If there are reservations about the possibility of this? Absurd you ask? You see these kinds of energy transmissions all the time. Electrical storms. Simply clouds balancing out electrical levels, shows that any kind of basic energy transfer can be acheived. There just needs to be a need. Or in the case of a person, Drive.

Now putting all this together, Peoples lack of belief in things like the concept of Ki, or Energy, would simply be Foolish. Why shouldnt you believe whatever you want to believe? These things are possible, its the controls that prevent the freedom to do so.

What is a Control you may Ask? Its practically everything these days. TV, Radio, Internet, News, Religion, Peer pressure, School, Materials, Possessions, Want.

I know whats floating around in your head, “oh noes, here come the conspiracy theories…” But you would be incorrect in supposing such things. Look at blind facts. Why are there armies? Why is there religion? Why is there hunger?

Fear. Fear is the primary control, Without Fear, you dont need to hate, you dont need to Want, you can simply be content. I have spent a lot of my recent years searching for this, And as soon as i feel i am close, My back fucks itself.

However, I dont let this beat me down. Depression and negativity is a waste of energy. Positive thought, Willpower, determination and Mental Control will pull me through anything i go through. I didnt ask for everything i have, But its what i have. And I’m content. Lonely, but content. No fault of mine, But blegh.

Even then, this is a control, Base human emotions dictate the base survival behaiviour; Eat, Rest, Mate. I live by my own means, but when base instincts go unhelped, It makes it difficult to focus, and to stay positive.

I have a strength i dont think i have seen in many others and I live my life by this strength. Maturity, respect and honor are rare in this world of possessions and materilism. So many people i see being Ruined because of distrust, or because they are afraid of what others think. When i spend every day, in pain, Trying to stay positive, i see all these people around me so much better off, and being so miserable and down on themselves, it just re-inforces my belief that the human race has breeded well beyond retardation.

How do we fix this you may ask? Well, PC answer? You dont. The human race will continue to grow and breed, we will eventually pick up space travel and start spreading our virus to other worlds. its how the human survival system works. Survive by Elimination. Anything that poses a threat to our existence, we destroy. on the spot. And now the human population is out of hand.

Heres my non-PC, But honest Solution. Mass Genocide. Cull the weak, the retarded, the old. The natural way of things dictates it this way. People arnt supposed to live forever. You WILL Die. It is simply  matter of time. The only way to beat this is a ‘State Change’. And by this i mean {what some of you would call ‘Ascension’, but i would call “Integration”.} As the human Mind is simply energy and data, Stored in the brain, Why cant this be electronified? Cyber-brains if you will. If this is at all possible, all we would need, is a basic net system to harbour the conciousnes’s, and a natural occuring power source. (considering a cycle of wind, wate, Solarr and Geo-thermic power.) And then any maintenance can be through basic manipulation of robots through This ‘Net’.

Ridiculous? Far from it. Let me make some suggestions, World of Warcraft. Second life. Any simulation already has this in place. But can we simplify it? Why does it have to be a game? Connect all the willing minds to the net, and let the unwilling falter in their quest for possessions. Consider Anime’s Such as Serial Experiments:Lain and GITS:SAC. We have the Ingenuity to create such a system. Co-operation would only be needed.

Obviously, Religious types would instantly oppose this idea. This idea creates a real freedom. A real sentience. And this takes away their control. Without people to control, they are no longer ‘Lord and masters’ of the feeble minded.

These old systems of control are far too old for this society. People are far too complicated for such simple arguments. We know too much to assume the existence of a ‘Single god’ or ‘Creator’. History cannot be proven. Time is fluid, and cannot be reversed. Its not like something you can travel along.

I was speaking to Quantim about this idea fairly recently, and my wording was thus: “Time is like a mountain stream. It flows, but only in its natural direction”

Besides, Time is a completely relative concept. Same as a lot of other things. Vision is the most relative of all. Is pink really pink? Is that green jumper you really like actually Shit brown? but as far as you know, when you were growing up, that color was named otherwise. And how are you to know the difference? you can only see through your eyes..

hmm.. Lots to ponder, lots to consider, lots to try and explain..

True freedom is simply a thought away.

‘05./Disconnect. *,!,$

Here i stand alone.

Well, For anyone who actually wants to know, i think i should put down some details about whats wrong with me. Nice and simple.

The tl;dr version first for a change. ;-)

tl;dr: As our bodies grow older, The discs in between our vertebrae [Bones] Starts to degenerate, as the Vertebrae fuse over time. Normally this process starts around the ages of 50-60. Now, In my case and my Mothers case, This process starts when we are around 20. So My spine is degrading MUCH faster than it should.

Now the long version: The condition is called Degenerative Disc Disease. Its not technically a disease, However the properties of its function are similar to that of a disease. Now, the degradation is different in each person, but main is primarily in my 3rd and 4th Lumbar, and a bit around the 4th and 5th Thoratic.

The degredation can cause a few things in different order, But the 2 things that will mainly happen are: Ruptured Disc {Simply, the disc ruptures, and the Vertebrae essentially clamp down onto the spinal cord causing intense pain over a huge period of time.} Or a Herniated Disc.{ A Herniated disc has Slipped on an angle, forcing the vertebrae to sit at an angle, twisting the spinal nerve, as well as crushing various parts of the spinal cord and nerve system.}

Yup, That hurts. Alot. And i have either one of those happening up to and beyond 5 times. My Mum has got 4 Discs gone, and each time a disc goes, she is in bed for around a month, inable to move, with huge muscle spams and agonising pain.

I get to look forward to a long time of pain and agony. All i’ll have is my friends, and i just want to know that peoples thoughts are with me. If you’ve read this, let me know. it would mean a lot.

Now, I can’t sleep, cause my back spasms and hurts like hell, so im gonna chill to some music and see how i go.

‘05./Disconnect. *,!,$

OH THE HUMANITY!!!! Etc etc etc…

A day of aggravated walkings due to lack of patience for shaped interwebs and for reasons unknown to me, A recurring kindness which is simply taken for granted and no thanks are ever given. Blegh.. This Day has got me thinking of rampant Misbelief’s and.. [pause for music, this wont end well..] {Ronald Jenkee’s, Almost Undamaged}

Anyways, Misbeliefs.. The first thing I would like to pose, is what do YOU believe in? A Belief can be implied as many many things. Do you believe in god? Do you believe in Human rights? Do you believe in Santa? Do you believe that the only thing that will make you happy is money and possesions? Do you believe Everything you read? Fuck that. What a waste? What hapened to freedom of speech? There is no such thing as truley free speech. Everything is a copy of a copy of a rip off of something else. Everything is a hybrid, a variation, a mutation. Do you believe in science?

Thinking thinking thinking… Why do people succumb to the consistent porogrammings of media and Television. Simply stop watching TV for 6 months, then watch one episode of Neighbours or Home and Away. Its sheer brainwashing. The amount you see that is simply falsified because its easier is far beyond what anyone can really comprehend. Even I see new terrible things every day. Why do you want things? Why do we need? I’ve come to a point where i have. I dont have any real needs, everything is supplied and i am content. But is this wrong? It seems everyone else is much happier in their fucked up messes they call lives? Even then, thats a horrible broad sweeping generalisation, that simply contradicts a lot of everything…. Either way, Does simply being a vendor of unbiased advice, A collector of Karma, and trying to base the idea of taijutsu as a mentality in equality, as well as being a confessor of secrets i will never speak, really make me different to anyone elses mentality? My Pro violent, pacificstic nature contradicts any old buddhist learnings, And any kind of equality has been lost with the sheer number of less than should be average [in the grand scheme of things] people.

I’ve had this fucking headache all day. its driving me mad. Back pain, fine. Neck down except hands? Fine. but headaches and RSI? Fuck you. And this makes it hard to think legibly..

[At this poiny, I watched an episode of scrubs and went to bed. Too tired and stoned to finish up.]

With some clarity now! People misbelieve on a day to day basis, Do you really believe you girlfriend Didn’t cheat on you, On that weekend where you dont REALLY know what happened? Is it because you are Naieve? or just plain ignorant? Blegh. People confuse me too much.

From here on, No more crappy people topics. Clear the mind, Clean the spirit, Feel without moving, Explore without thought.

~./Disconnected.. *.!.$.
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Tumblr? interesting choice….

I BLAME QUANT!M!! Its all your fault. Yup, i said it. Quant!m started it.

Now that that’s all out the way, onto business. First of all, you’ll ask yourself, what am i doing here? Why am i reading this filth?? Now, before you go off and look at come lolcats, or the viral craze for the week, or whatever everyone’s favourite meme is for the week, Take the time, to step aside and read something interesting for a change…

I chose the internet as my medium because Writing is so technical. Covered on a whole by censorship laws, Narky publishers, Bookshops, printers, etc etc etc. So if you are publishing a book, you are expecting cash inflow. I’m doing this for free, as i dont believe in paying for knowledge. So the internet is my medium, and Tumblr is my Soap box. Fuck i hate twitter.

To make a few things clear before i start this endless mess of words and nonsense and probably slightly incorrect views which are slightly more correct than views that may be correct, but simply mis-represented, I must stress, that i am an Idealist. I do not believe in how the world is run as a whole, I do not like the idea and drive behind Currency, I find media a tool for the powerful to control the habit’s of the masses, and i believe that 90% of the population is either too stupid or lacking the very basics of common sense to get by in any kind of life which isnt presented to them on a platter.

Understanding this, I live by my means. I am by no means a hypocrite, i am simply a survivor. When one is born into a world of violence and materilism with no real need for either, One must Live within their means. I Do not like money, but in this day and age, it is nigh on impossible to live in your own means. The amount of controls makle it extremely difficult to be self sufficient, in the very sense of the term. So i do what i must to live.

My writing spark is waning for the minute, But there will be much more to read. I’ll cover all things that pop into my mind. Ranging from The law of One, To meta-physical Mental geometry creation through Collective thought, The search of the infinite intelligence as well as various rants and raves about my lack sympathy and patience for the general population and how poorly the planet is run by the apes up in government.

~./Disconnected.. *.!.$.
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